Like the beginnings of most people blogs, they are born out of a place of change, challenge and commitment. Change in the fact that something significant has happened in your life, whether it was a long time coming, like someones battle with cancer finally ending or a sudden career ending meeting that leaves you hopeless, there is typically a jolt that leads you to write. Challenges that follow such changes can alter your perspective on everything and the only place you can find solace is in your own words. As if you were thirteen again with a diary filled with all of your thoughts and opinions that you want to keep locked up forever, unless its a public blog (whoops) or, unless your siblings find that tiny little key you thought you hid so well. Commitment in knowing that these words are going to lead you, and maybe others like you, on a journey to a better place. Through those changes and challenges that have lead you (us) here, there is a commitment to release it, to escape the space between (yes, that's a DMB reference) and to emerge.
My blog is long overdue.
The changes and challenges that have been present in my life over the past four years have been beyond overwhelming and I am disappointed in myself for not returning to my roots of writing to get through those times. Part of me was so lost in the moment of chaos that I didn't know where to go or what to do. I was a wife and a mother and grasping to the last ounce of "me" that was left and there was no room for commitments. Only survival.
Over the next however many blogs it takes, I am just going to write. I will write about what my changes and challenges have been, how I have improperly dealt with them, and the ways in which I am committed to dealing with them now. I am not ashamed of anything life has brought my way and I know that I am certainly not the only one to face a life of [temporary] hardships. Maybe you have been through the same thing? Maybe you are struggling in your marriage or finances or in parenthood? Your body, your mind (whats left of it, in my case) or your spirituality? Maybe you're a robot and your life is perfect, although doubtful, you might just enjoy the read anyway.
